Rimworld
I started playing video games again
Rimworld
is pissing me off
but… I see why people like it
I remembered a Dream
for the first time Since I was maybe 19 years old
it was heavy, and Dark.
Brutal
like a decade and a half ago , too
I am there, when I remember them.
And it feels so dark
Harsh.
I live in these Worlds,
Every Night?
why do I never get to see the Fun times?
no people, not even Myself
this time
the Ocean, Black and Heavy
Loud.
Dark Dark Water
Barely any light in these Dreams
Roaring
Screaming
Laughing.
and a Huge fucking Ship , seemingly
with the Waves
dark, too
but Moving, Surviving
Unafraid
Inhuman?
a big block of a floating fortress
sinking under the crashes
bouncing Up, down the way
My dream back then …
I was in a dark world
and also in my bedroom
i was lucid dreaming and in 2 dreams at One Time
paralyzed in the dark world
outta body in the colorful bedroom I was asleep in
I was down Ocean City for a few weeks not much sleep
It was the first sleep I had back home
For weeks after waking I was rattled.
and in Denial, looking back of course I see that Now
and I haven’t dreamt Much, since then
I was watching my Sleep, watching my Parents cry Out Over me , I was above my Body in my Bedroom looking down
and I was also seeing the Dark World I was trapped in
( Stepping down into ? )
Shadows ,
Blur
A dark path with dark trees and a cramped demeanor
a small hostile place
But Light… Fire
A quick sense of it, anyways
back to my Room
back to my Sleeping
what are they trying to tell me ?
I cannot
Muted Shining Sparks off through the Foggy Hazy cold sad place
Nothing of Life could be down there
Demons around every Bend
I was a Ghost, Too
though.
I grew comfortable
Knowing I couldn’t be touched
But I couldn’t help many Others, if at All
I had to Kill , to Get There
of the Spirit
of my friends
I was caught up in it, I suppose
I don’t know if I am a Good that went Bad
or a Bad that wants Good
but I am alive and I do have a responsibility to take care of Myself
that can be hard for a person like me
i admit that
Doctors and Listings
ill check my email later
