I gotta start with that 1
It’s becoming increasingly difficult to duplicate / find some of my Live Session sounds .
My story will take time for me To Recognize and I am more than Ok with that I am not really angry anymore , at least at Other People .
The Only Fans ladies where right
I needed to get away
My session tonight was crappy
half processing
1 thing at a Time.
no apology needed
I was bullied very hard home and away
In between Kidegarden and 5th Grade, I had a best friend move away each Grade
I would make them
then They had to go
I lost my uncle and my 4th close friend
I didn’t process it
I went wrong
So much of it I put away
without understanding
the stories
the slo mo
the speed past
“ The Psychology Of People who Where Hurt Too Much “
shush.
it’s ok to be wrong
My name is Matthew and I have high function autism
I am a heroin addict, too
That’s all I could Find Out for Sure so Far
I think I am good enough at Music to probably Make a Living somehow '
I can’t find that How right Here, right Now
though
and that’s Ok, too
Up to a Point I will let you in
and I will defeat you without trying
And I will be sorry for it 10 years down the road if things get bad enough
I played a lot of music and got to Hear maybe the best 60 years of Music Creation, Film, Art and Television
I have gotten over something that I kinda Forgot I was
and It doesn’t really even feel worth Talking about
I don’t have to Search for it too much anymore
It doesn’t feel like Winning Or losing
I did predict that, about 7 months ago most likely
I like predictions
only because I get to Avoid Real Answers
