I guess the “End of History” was 40 years ago now or some crap
The end of a Reality Assumed and Shared
The coming end of Anonymity on the Internet
Humanity seems Lost right now
I know I am
We won’t have Love, Purpose, Houses, Futures
But…
Flying Cars
Personless Food Drone Delivery
[ Did Homeless Cowboys’ trick-out their Horses with Bedding and cool Cooking Wear and then make sleek Youtube Videos detailing a normal day in the life ? ]
The last lady I thought I loved
I couldn’t even really Talk to
I couldn’t explain
my whole life
because I didn’t Know It
I stopped thinkin about Me in that Way
To need her
But not want
And now they don’t even really
want to know you
unless you have Followers or something?
idk
Don’t they just Buy those now?
Same Point, I suppose
Oh well
I wanted to live my life Off of social Media
then I trolled my way into a different Life
I have no Love Left
Someone will probably come along
I know that
And for all the crap that we went through I will always love my family and old friends
Songs are the Last thing I get to Hold onto
up here….
( Well, Thoughtful Writing..
I guess I Have trouble
with Emotions sometimes. )
…. They do have to keep changing
This place is such a cruel place to all of us
I will learn how to Help Myself
And to let Her in again
I guess I probably knew that I could throw 20 dollars at Beautiful Women and Not really hurt their hearts
But to me it was kinda painful
( for clarity I signed up for Only fans about 1 year ago and annoyed about 100 women . )
( I did just come down off of Pills , longggg habit )
and I was showing myself Who I used to be
Desirable , Options , Never Lonely
Impossible
There was just something from back there that Shook me.
I learned many Masks
I put me away
and then Heroin and Mistakes
Denial is the Last Stand
it’s where we Lose ourselves too though
know where you come from
to believe where you Stand now
I didn’t like when people made fun of Floyds’ death
and I don’t like when they do that to Charlie
Gross stuff.
All around
I dont rlly vote fr
The problem with Views and Attention…
You will shift around to Get More of those
then start acting crazy when You don’t get them
I know about the second part
I do wish I was popular don’t get me wrong
But
I am glad I have this time to really Figure Out
I really don’t Know if Music is my Calling
I wish I knew Either way, by now ffs
I guess I kinda Know
But It’s gonna be a lot of work
so I cope
…. .. Slowly this song should Come to Life
whatever it’s final Form
Writing requires 0 skill and too much time
Song
Writer.
Music for Musicians.
and Music Lovers
and a voice …
When I am good, at any rate
It’s hard to feel good where I am at
I know that
But I did just complete something
And You wouldn’t believe me if I tried to explain it to you.
—— Matthew
